Journal October 28 2009 Wednesday

Gratitude And Ponderings
1- G'Dad awoke this morning
in a childlike good mood
talking babytalk
2- i came home, took a shower
it's morning meditation
for me
then sleep
3- i didn't go back to see G'Dad
but did go to zoo with Steve
4- dragged him to quilting shop
Quilter's Patch
205 North Star Drive
Victoria, TX
(361) 578-0380
and had him leave me
@ Hancock Fabrics
while he went to grocery store
where he ran into his old friend Don Breech
whose art we saw hung @ the hospital
6- Steve and Mamacita went to visit G'Dad
for evening visit after Mamacita's nap
7- i stayed home and listened to
Clarissa Pinkola Estes
Session 3 of Mother Night
Curanderismo
Allying With The Imaculate Heart
For Guidance And Recovery
8- i think i'll enter these
past 5 journal entries
into my blogspot
and then
9- go over to spend the nite
with G'Dad
10- doc is coming to meet with us
at the crack of dawn
tomorrow morning

Journal October 27 2009 Tuesday

Gratitude And Ponderings
1- i went to the hospital
mid-day because
Steve needed me there
2- G'Dad asked me to stay
the nite
3- I went to the Dragon Palace
and ate Chinese food
4- then G'Dad slept soundly
all through the nite
while i read some in
Philippa Gregory's THE FAVORED CHILD
G'Dad even smiled and laughed
in his sleep a bit toward morning

Journal October 26 2009 Monday

Gratitude And Ponderings
1- i awoke
and finished reading
Christine Page's
2012 AND THE GALACTIC CENTER
THE RETURN OF THE GREAT MOTHER
2- i played some music
on my coyote oldman flute
3- [ESSENE BOOK OF DAYS]
today: I will bring the spirit of Freedom
to my: living in grace and gratitude
4- feelings: open my heart
to the blessings of this day
let the husks of everything
that is not necessary
fall away from me
let me plant seeds
of poems and prayers and promises
in the row that is before me
this day
5- G'Dad had a fair day today
6- i started reading Rachel Pollack's
TAROT WISDOM: SPIRITUAL TEACHINGS
AND DEEPER MEANINGS
7- that got me off to writing
a card about 0 Meditation
which led me to
8- Cat Stevens' song
I left my happy home
to see what I could find out
9- which got me to a youtube
about his transition
to Yusuf Islam
10- which gets me to this point
where i realize so much of my world
is interconnected
11- i read this and it talks about that
and i've already read that
12- Rachel Pollack says:
we do readings
to demonstrate to ourselves
that the universe
is not just broken pieces.
Things connect.
(NOTE: I read that
after I wrote #11.)

Journal October 25 2009 Sunday

Gratitude and Ponderings
1- [ESSENE BOOK OF DAYS]
Today I will bring the Spirit of Learning
From Everything to my: day's doings
and being in awe-mazement
2- Feelings: as i gaze in wonder
at the world surrounding me
i feel chockful of
abundant blessings
filling me up to the brim and
overflowing in the bowl of my being
3- sandy remembrance of the beach
and the big water of the gulf
cling to me
as i wander
this strange land of big sky
looking for the glimmer
of shards of truth
to gather in my gladbag of
collections
4- heartfelt joy
how can i exude it?
5- we took Mamacita
out to eat @ Red Lobster
Mike and Steve talked
Mamacita and I were silent
6- i took fish from Red Lobster
to G'Dad in the hospital
he napped and woke up to eat it
for dinner
7- he had a fair day
refusing to walk in the morning
but walking with the physical therapist
all the way to the far end of the hall
in the afternoon

Journal October 24 2009 Saturday

Gratitude And Ponderings
1- I am grateful
that Steve and I can be here to
lend our helping hands
to Mike and Gloria
in the tending and
taking care of Mamacita
and Grand-Dad
2- i talked with
Ellen Selover
3- and Toni Romano
trying to get Darren Weissman's
book name
THE POWER OF INFINITE LOVE AND GRATITUDE
4- posted my blog up to date
5- and explored
faerieenchantment.blogspot,com
and
edgarandedgar.typepad.com/my_weblog
to dream of how i want my blog
to be more experiential
6- went to see WHERE THE WILD
THINGS ARE
found my kind of tea @ the movie theater
-can you believe that?
7- visited GrandDad for a bit
and sat @ table with Mike and
Steve discussing possibilities
for what to do after social worker
nurses and doc have
evaluation session on Tuesday
8- talked with Carol Hicks in Virginia Beach
and Ellen Selover who suggested I read
MERIDIAN EXERCISES FOR SELF-HEALING
and Toni Romano in Chicago
where she is helping daughter
who had a hysterectomy
and Nancy Thomas in Canada
8- read in my Farmgirl magazine
and explored their website
got off into Stampington website
9- now hafta write my intentions
for the coming week
in my Jennifer Louden's
LIFE ORGANIZER
10- then I'll read a bit
Christine Page's 2012
and Philippa Gregory's THE FAVORED CHILD
and go to sleep

Journal October 23 2009 Friday

Gratitude And Ponderings
1- i went to have a massage
@ Mane Productions
110 Lantana
Victoria TX
(361) 573-1303
Kay Conley
introduced me to
www.bodytalksystem.com
2- G'dad's bowels are impacted
and we had a miserable afternoon
with stool softeners
enemas
and groaning from pain
3- i searched hi and lo
for bottled tea i drink
no luck finding any
4- i walked around Dillards
and found not one thing
i want or need to buy
it's a yucky season
according to my tastes
5- after Steve and Mamacita
came home from their
evening sit @ the hospital
Steve and i went out to eat
@ Johnny Carino's
good 12 layer lasagna
brought a hunk of it home
as leftovers
steve brought home
over half of his chicken whatever
i ate yummy delicious bread pudding
and delighted in refills of
italian raspberry cream sodas
6- my massage felt so good
had no idea how tense i was
in my shoulders
nor how weak my right side is
7- blissfully went to sleep tired

Journal October 22 2009 Thursday

Gratitude And Ponderings
1- i made an appointment
for a massage tomorrow
@ noon:30
2- i live in a world that
has VICTORIA magazine
places of beauty
graciousness
3- i live in a world full of books
that nurture and nourish
one on the spiritual path
4- i follow my path with heart
5- i talked with Rachel in the morning
Susan Norrie and Rose in the evening