The wagon and me at rest in August

Here's a picture of me on the gypsywagon porch
when I was reading Steven Pressfield's
THE WAR OF ART:
BREAK THROUGH THE BLOCKS
AND WIN YOUR INNER CREATIVE BATTLES.
Below is a copy of an e-mail message I sent to my friends:
A Dream And A Miracle
DEAR! Friends-
I woke up from this dream around noon today:
(I went to sleep after the sun came up)
Tuesday August 23, 2011
I awaken from a dream in which
I am explaining to Dr. Justin
how I have my days & nites mixed up sleepwise.
I say it in a disgusted tone,
aggravated with myself.
Then I realize how different my attitude
is from how a good parent feels
when they have to wake up during the night
to feed a newborn baby.
Here I am birthing a new self
re: after Josh & Harm & Granddad's deaths
and having no TO DO list
and instead of doing it with the love
I feel about a newborn baby
I've been doing it from a Woe! is me!
Poor Pitiful Pearl Place
saying I'm lost in the woods.
I've been doing it from a mind set of
diminishing ...'s of infinite possibilities
in my hope for the future.
From a place of despair.
Instead of being joyful
and excited about birthing a new me.
I've been depressed
and low pot about feeling like
I'm on a slide in a deep dark cave
headed toward death
in a freefall
over which I have no control.
The moral of this story is:
I can change my attitude
and perspective
and look at this as an OPPORTUNITY
to celebrate birthing a new me
in this world of living.
I don't want to be living death.
I want to be living life to its juciest
before I get to be born out of this world
& into the next one.
I took this as one of those Aha! moments
that can turn your life around.
After being stuck in a deep dark depression
that started the day I put Jan's cross up
@ the site of Josh's accident on July 1st.
A dream came & I remembered it
& its message seemed to speak right to my heart
& something in it helped me get over myself
& feel like I'm back on my path with heart.
I went to see Dr. Justin this afternoon
-he's the chiropractor that saw Harm for free.
He did a lot of tests, took x-rays
& gave me treatments.
So far the bloodwork for Dr Bill
they took last Wed hasn't come back in.
I came home, ate some salad & watermelon
& sat in the sun in the front yard
until it was time to go to an essential oil class
out @ Charlotte's Healing Acres.
When I got home I put ice on my arm & back
per Dr Justin's instructions
then I came upstairs
& applied Abundance essential oil to my hips
as he asked me to do
(not so much for $
as to attract good into my life).
After all of that I finally got around to
playing my flute
& finishing my morning meditation stuff.
Get this
the ESSENE BOOK OF DAYS reading
for today said:
SEASONAL FOCUS: The bountiful harvest is gathered
MORNING FOCUS: The angel of Joy
OPENING: Before the reading,
meditate on the image
of a newborn child,
looking out at the
world in awe.
Experience your newness.
MEDITATION: This day lies before me,
a newborn child.
What shall this child experience
As it grows from day to night,
From new to old?
Will it be a clone of yesterday's child
And of the day before?
Or is there newness in this day
To match the newness of a child?
Is there joy awaiting
to match the joy of expectation
Twinkling in this newborn eye?
I am the child;
The choice is mine.
~~~
Wow! I feel like you do
when you draw a tarot card
& it's just the right one with the message
you need to hear.
Tell me there aren't angels & spirit guides
watching out over us-
I won't believe you!
I felt the Divine was @ work in my life today!!!
~~~
Since then I have been going to see
my chiropractor Dr. Justin
and my regular Dr Bill
called me on a Saturday
to tell me the results from my bloodwork
were all okay.
I've even started on bi-weekly visits
to my friend Jennifer @ Healing Hands
for the delightful experience
of Thai yoga massage.
All of this to say I've turned a corner
and while I may not be outta the woods yet
I feel like I am back on my path with heart.
I know some of you may be going through
your own dark nights of the soul
so I reach out to touch you across the miles
in hopes we may share communion together
and feel nurtured and nourished
by sharing our stories.
All ways us living
Love,
Light,
& Laughter,
Ms. Susan
The Pink Flamingo Lady Of LALALand
/Lower Alabama
H 251-988-8693
mssusan@gulftel.com
M 251-752-7806
flamingoladyoflalaland@gmail.com
Please visit my blog site
Flamingo Gypsy's Spiritual Wanderings
@ www.flamingogypsy.blogspot.com

WATER/ANCIENT MYSTERIES/CUPS/EMOTIONS/SEAGLASS 12

Is it my destiny to become
an eternal companion
and co-creator with God?
~~~
(inspired by Edgar Cayce's ARE's
ANCIENT MYSTERIES October/November 2008)

WATER/ANCIENT MYSTERIES/CUPS/EMOTIONS/SEAGLASS 11

Job 38:7
When the morning stars
sang together
and all of the sons of God
shouted for joy.
~~~
Our souls were in their divine condition
prior to becoming incarnate humans.
A part of each of us
is a star in the heavens.
~~~
What do I do
to cleanse and spiritualize
my human body
so that I may journey
to follow the enlightenment
of my human mind?
~~~
How do I retain my delicate
conscious connection
to the Universal Consciousness and Forces?
~~~
(inspired by Edgar Cayce's ARE's
ANCIENT MYSTERIES August/September 2008)

WATER/ANCIENT MYSTERIES/CUPS/EMOTIONS/SEAGLASS 10

My soul has both masculine and
feminine within itself.
~~~
Where am I in relationship
to the 4 Principles of the Way?
1-Oneness
2-Dynamic Balance
3-Cycles and Growth
4-Harmoniuos Action
~~~
Do I see beyond appearances
to how all life exists in oneness
as a whole?
~~~
How do I maintain balance
between the inner and the outer?
between the dark and the light?
between the action and non-action?
in my daily living
in the ever-changing world?
~~~
Have I stopped striving with my will?
~~~
Do I flow with the Way
in harmonious action?
~~~
(inspired by Edgar Cayce's ARE's
ANCIENT MYSTERIES June/July 2008)

WATER/ANCIENT MYSTERIES/CUPS/EMOTIONS/SEAGLASS 9

What do I know about the kundalini energy
that flows through the chakra centers
of my physical body?
~~~
How do I honor the elan vital
of all life?
in myself?
and others?
~~~
(inspired by Edgar Cayce's ARE's
ANCIENT MYSTERIES June/July 2008)

WATER/ANCIENT MYSTERIES/CUPS/EMOTIONS/SEAGLASS 8

There was an INVOLUTION into matter.
Prior to the evolution
we were once CELESTIAL BEINGS.
Prior to the evolution of matter
there was an INVOLUTION into matter
from the realms of energy.
The energy beings
gradually converted themselves
into matter.
And in the future
they will transform
their matter back into energy.
~~~
What relationship do I have with
my physical body?
~~~
What connection do I have with
my spirit?
~~~
What relationship do I have with
my soul?
~~~
How do I honor the spiritual
divine spark within my being?
~~~
(inspired by Edgar Cayce's ARE's
ANCIENT MYSTERIES June/July 2008)

WATER/ANCIENT MYSTERIES/CUPS/EMOTIONS/SEAGLASS 7

How do I connect with Higher Forces
to lift me to Higher Ground?
~~~