been in a wreck on his motorcycle, Several phone calls later we were
told he was dead. Who is gonna say, "I love you, Mama Bear?" This
afternoon I felt my Daddy was sending me a message from the otherside
saying "Don't worry, I've got him right here with me," but tonite I
cannot sleep. Every time I lay my head on the pillow here @ the
Hampton Inn in Wellington -memories of Josh force my head up off the
pillow. I wonder when sleep will come?
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Dear Susan,
ReplyDeleteI'm at work, and was surfing the web before going to a meeting. I love going from one blog to another, seeing what people I love, and sometimes total strangers, are doing with their lives. But in this virtual reality, I was struck by something definitely real. I can't believe what I'm reading. Wish it were part of this virtual world, wish it were just a thought of "what would I do if..." He can't be dead. He can't be dead. If I say it long enough, will it erase what you just said? How can I hug you while you are so far away in time (must be the middle of the night there) and space ? How can I tell you I just can't imagine losing one of my sons, no matter how grown Josh was...
I look at your picture, July 1st... The picture of "before". Will there be a "before" and an "after" now?
I don't want to say goodbye to Josh yet. Just hope that his granddad is taking care of him. Hadn't seen Josh for almost 10 years. Wish I could just see him one more time.
I love you. Many, many hugs to you. And Steve. And Sarah Star. And all who are in pain right now and simply hurt.
Dear Susan...I am so, so sorry.
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