Thoughts Upon Awakening Sunday, January 2, 2011

Snow near Huntersville, North Carolina

Christmas Day 2010

THOUGHTS UPON AWAKENING
@ home
Audubon Place South

on Fish River
in LALALand

/Love Always Land

/Lower Alabama

WHY DO I MEDITATE?

I meditate to find

the voice of God in me.

Of course, as a Human

I can talk with God

a mile a minute.

I talk to God in prayer,

almost unceasingly

but in meditation

I bind up my mouth,

get real quiet,

put my soul in a receptive state

and listen.

I am not a force pushing outward

like a pioneer trying to explore

and find the outer edges

of my limits.

It is like the part of the ebb and flow

of water

when I stand or sit

at the water's edge on a beach

and let the waters of spirit

rhythmically rush in

to meet me.

For most of my life I am landlocked

but on special occasions

I dip my toes in water

or dive right in

and go swimming

in the waters of spirit.

In meditation and prayers

that are not me-me-me lists

of what I think I want

the veils between me

and the Divine disappear.

The energies that flow

through all living things

are met.

I feel my connections to all

in a holy, sacred space of Love.

All of my fences and defenses,

the things that keep me

feeling separate

from the Force Source

are swept away.

All the crap I've accumulated

is washed away

and I stand naked

in the truth of my being.

Unencumbered

it is easier for me to see and feel

the essential core of my being.

It is here I let go of my

shoulds

coulds

and woulds

and allow myself the bliss

of being here now.

The Grace of the Divine

pours into me like honey

and I am filled with light.

It can come to me

through my crown chakra

or my heart

or in my gut.

It is in meditation

I am blessed with feeling

connected to everything.

Thich Nhat Hanh taught me

about walking meditation.

The Native Americans told me

to walk a mile in another's shoes

to end conflict

and better understand him/her.

In nature,

with nothing man or woman-made,

it is easier to feel what is me

or see how the differences

between me and others

are dissolved in the

Cosmic Ocean of all that is.

In my life I have been blessed

with many aha! experiences.

I remember the first time

I ever saw a picture

of the earth from outer space.

There were no lines drawn

separating countries or states.

It was a beautiful ball

covered with water and land,

perfect like only

a child's drawing

or the painting of an artist

can be.

In meditation I get to

breathe in spirit

and become mindful of

what I breathe out into the world.

In meditation my little self

surrenders to a Bigger Self

and I am lifted to Higher Ground.

I remember hiking with

a bunch of women

to the top of a mountain

in the Adirondacks

where I could see

only what was natural-

trees,

rocks,

dirt,

water,

sky,

birds.

There was no evidence

of anything human

and in that sacred space

I felt honor bound

to live in ways

that did not mar

or mess up

that beauty.

In meditation I find

sacred spaces

where I feel connected

to the ley lines of the earth

and I better grok/understand

my response-ability in weaving

the threads I've been

given to weave into the design,

blended in perfect harmony

with the music of the spheres.

In meditation my song becomes

the song of a bird way up high

rising above all of this

to soar in the skies above.

I become the earthworm dancing

in the earthy-earth.

In meditation my

body,

mind

and spirit

become aligned with the stars.

I get right on with

the steps I am to take

as my part of

the dance of life.